I’m pushing aside the memory of my nightmare,
pushing aside thoughts of Alex,
pushing aside thoughts of Hana and my old school,
like Raven taught me to do.
The old life is dead.
But the old Lena is dead too.
I buried her.
I left her beyond a fence,
behind a wall of smoke and flame.
Lauren Oliver delivers an electrifying follow-up to her acclaimed New York Times bestseller, Delirium. This riveting, brilliant novel crackles with the fire of fierce defiance, forbidden romance, and the sparks of a revolution about to ignite. (http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/9593911-pandemonium)
I don’t remember much, and I’m really sorry for that, but I remember the last past of Delirium where Alex was left behind the fence after Lena crossed. He did not make it on the other side because the electricity came back and he was surrounded. So Lena ran away from Alec, away from home, away from her old life.
Here comes the fuzzy part. I do remember that Lena changed her name and closed herself to the world because of the lost she experienced. And that was it. Sorry.
“We all need mantras, I guess – stories we tell ourselves to keep us going.” –Lena