Welcome back, Engineer

Hello, my name is Feby Ann Buan Valerio and as of 9:24PM on the 7th of October, I am a Registered Mechanical Engineer.

Beep beep beep. Typing the aforementioned sentence feels so surreal. I literally am still buzzing with the uncontrollable energy I got when I first read the news.  I can’t seem to grasp the idea that finally, after these long months, my hard work (combined with all of my loved ones) paid off.

Coming back to my most cherished blog with a few letters added to my name is the warmest welcome I could hope for.

It has been months since my last blog post (totally emo-ish post) and I want to thank all the readers who still drop by expecting something new (and getting disappointed, I’d like to think) and to those who back read my past posts. I haven’t been able to post anything (even if I badly wanted to) because I had to focus all of my attention to my academics (eg thesis, Power Plant Design book, projects) and my graduation. You wouldn’t believe how stressful that part of my life was. College was so cruel to have its hardest phase for the finale. Around February was the time that I wasn’t able to do anything socially because my time is rationed to my thesis, design book, and a little bit of sleep. I wasn’t home for most days and even if I was, my body was glued to my laptop or my bed.

Though it was tiring, it was equally fulfilling to accomplish something that you actually did yourself (hello my babies Power Plant Design Book and Rotational Molding Machine). I thought graduating will be a breeze because I just really wanted to graduate. It wasn’t that I am not enjoying college, I just wanted to get away from all the drama that college students have. It eats me up and leaves my overthinking self dry and damaged. The day of graduation itself was no exemption to the rule. I almost didn’t attend the ceremonies due to my lack of self-confidence and overwhelming shame of how I look. But I pushed through it and I’m glad I did. After all, you only graduate in Undergrad once.

I had a few days of peace before my anxiety started to bother me because that time, around April (after my birthday, hooray 21-year old self!), I had to review for the board exam but I have no dorm, no dorm mates, no clue whatsoever what I should do to put everything into place. My classmates are all enrolled in another review center and I couldn’t stay in an all boy’s dorm (like duh). So what I did was join in another section’s dorm and tried to get along with new people. It was hard at first because I wasn’t normally sociable but it turned out okay because my dorm mates were good people. No kidding.

Review classes started last May 21 and ended just before the Licensure examination last September 28-29. I wouldn’t go into detail how challenging those months are. I was actually not that worried for the first months but that got me cramming all the lessons I have to study at the last month of review. I even reviewed the day before the exam (even though people told me that I should rest that whole day), stayed late, and also on the 28th (for the subjects on the 29th). Things that I regretted after the exam.

Never cram. I might have been lucky because I was used to cramming and I think it’s one of the study habits that I am adapted to but it is definitely not advisable to do so. You need your rest. Not just your mind, but your body also.

Right after the last day of examination, we went straight to church to attend the Midweek Service. It felt so right to give thanks to the Lord because I felt His Presence all throughout the time I was taking the exam. When questions get tough and my mind is going blank, I just sent a silent prayer and I’m good to go. God truly is amazing.

I went home a few days after the exam because my resources are getting depleted and I super miss my family (don’t forget my bed!). Tentative release of the results was October 4 so from that day on, I slept at around 2-3am. Nothing unusual really. I often sleep that late during the review.

Not expecting results coming out til next week, I was feeling lax (and fat) til one of my friends messaged me with “Congrats!” which I replied to with a “Ha?”. Then I hurriedly checked the website of PRC for the results and Tada~~~!!!

The rest is flooded in tears.

I already said my thank you’s on Facebook but there is one person I haven’t had the chance to say thanks to.

Dear self,

Thank you for being strong, physically and emotionally. I know how hard it is to interact to new people and to adjust to a new environment. You never liked loud and crowded places but you adapted. You never were the friendly one but you made tons of friends. You always doubted yourself but look! You are an Engineer and made everyone proud!

Thank you for not giving up. Even though you contributed to the rooftop’s slight flood at night, you always continued to face what lies ahead. Even though you find living in Manila hard, you still went through it’s daily grind.

Thank you for doing this, not just for yourself, but for your family and those who loves and believes in you.

Now, rest, enjoy life, and prepare for what lies ahead. Because the real world is gonna be a roller coaster ride!

Love, pey   ❤



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